Opener

Tonight will be the night

I'm going to make this right

I ran out the door so fast

They thought I wouldn't come back

Back to the same three days

Over and over again

Fraction of zero sum

Ad infinitum

All the regret I keep

All the mistakes I dread

Exhausted from oversleep

Awake but still in bed

Ashamed of the things I've said

Afraid of what's in my head

So under this bridge I'll stay

And wait for the same three days

To end

I sob when I speak

They're looking at me

But I can't tell what they see

My thoughts slow to a crawl

I embrace the fall

So I won't answer your calls

It wasn't always this way

Perpetually in the gray

Solace in empty fate

The years evaporate

But within the harsh spotlight

I bury myself inside

'Cause every time that I think I let you go

They will construct this maze

Of fear that I navigate

I'll attempt to parse my place

You'll define everything

I'll finally shut my mouth

Feel both my feet touch ground

Put an end to this run

Just say the word and I'll jump

To everyone: Yeah, you were right

I'll never get better

And I'm sorry

Next time

I won't sob when I speak

I'll be at peace

Because it's not want, it's need

I need to be someone else