Ghost

I tried it once before, but I didn't get too far

I felt a lot of pain, but it didn't stop my heart

And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck

But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up

I tried it once before and I think I mighta messed up

I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough

But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die

But nothing very special ever happens in my life

Take the blade away from me

I am a freak, I am afraid that

All the blood escaping me won't end the pain

And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me

I died to be the white ghost

Of the man that I was meant to be

I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut

I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough

And I shoulda told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son

But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

Take the blade away from me

I am a freak, I am afraid that

All the blood escaping me won't end the pain

And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me

I died to be the white ghost

Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

I tried it once again and I think I might black out

I shoulda left a letter but I had nothing to write about

My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up

The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked

Take the blade away from me

I am a freak, I am afraid that

All the blood escaping me won't end the pain

And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me

I died to be the white ghost

Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

I tried it once again and I think I went too far

I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart

I couldn't tell my mother: mom, I love you, I'm a bad son

This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one