Self Punishment

Weight of guilt got me down

Try to escape but don't know how

It takes up all space now

And I'm about to drown

You don't understand

I live with my mistakes, constant regret

I can't forgive myself

I live it all over again

The fear in your eyes, the sadness in your eyes

You will never forget it

The pain in see you suffocating all it in your chest

Sure one day you won't be able enough to care

Enough to keep, enough to stay

And I know apologies don't mean anything

Why keep hurting you?

Why always make the same mistakes?

And why complain if I deserve so much worse