Stoop Lights

I don't got hate for myself, I got nothing to say to me

I spend every day with me

I'm tired, I need an escape

It's hard to relate to me

Straight out the bottle, no chasing it

Look in my eyes, I'm a space cadet

Just a matter of time, I'm embracing death

Dead pool, you should place a bet

I'm in the bowels of war

But I feel no stress when I let it pour

But it all come back when I can't run back

Anything that even happened the night before

Always gonna fall on the sharpest sword

Always gonna sleep on the hardest floor

You can still see light in the darkest corner

But you still feel lost when it's unexplored

So I'ma see black till my eyes adjust

Till my time is up, till my mind is fucked

Limp around town on the irish crutch

With a belly full of whisky and self-disgust

Peekin' at my own dead body through splayed hands

As I grunt and I drool like a caveman

Fucked up, I'm a fool

With a room with a view of a wasteland

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker

Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed

Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone

Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor

Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone

Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family

Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker

Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed

Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone

Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor

Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone

Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family

Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Puke in my mouth, I got used to the flavor

Face on the porcelain, photo engraver

Memories fade and they float in the air

Like dusk casting shadows and sodium vapor

Waking up in situations

Feeling like I'm living in suspended animation

Guess I'm still sober on occasion

And that's enough for me to rationalize inebriation

I told you I ain’t right, you knew it going in

Just shut the fuck up if you wanna be a friend

I don’t want to stretch you more than you extend

I don’t want to spit in the hand that you lend

I did it to myself, I get what I deserve

Thoughts in my head, feel like a raw nerve

I'm lookin' for an answer, I don’t want to hurt but

I just want to sleep when I'm tired of earth

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker

Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed

Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone

Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor

Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone

Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family

Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker

Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed

Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone

Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor

Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone

Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family

Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker

Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed

Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone

Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor

Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone

Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family

Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong