Away When You Were Here

Dad I know you were sad when you died

And I was young it’s the way I kept you in my mind

The mess that was left and my mother cried

And when she stood up she was nobody’s mother

I’d be fine

But I missed you then

And I miss you now

Like you’d missed things I might say

You’re still lost in clouds but I’m older now

I can see through lifting haze

That you were away even when you were here

Sometimes a phrase or a manner that’s you

Comes through me, it goes in a flash

It’s a frame, it’s a blink like life

Oh and how much now should we pay for the past

Cause you could age with grace if I freed you in my mind

But I loved you then

And I love you now

All the things I wished I’d asked

When I’m lost in clouds

I remember how I was robbed and I was blessed

And you were away even when you were here

Cause it’s not about you, not you, anymore

It’s about what I’d do with it all

And I, I’ll never let you let me down

This morning I wake to be older than you were

Flash I'll smell for miles, every footstep would be mine

You’d have lost that weight, you’d have gone so straight

You’d have made my wedding day

You’d have saved my youth from that point of truth

You’d have kept those wolves at bay

But you were away, you were away even when you were here