Afraid of Love

In my soul, there’s something that I want to say

We laughed until we cried

We cried until I changed

I changed until I thought

Maybe now I can come back again

But I’m not here at all

I’m too afraid I’ll fall

From the cloud of my distractions

To the lowlands of my soul

Was it a dream?

Then what does it mean?

When all my self indulgence

All falls back down on me

I’m out on a limb

I wanna fall in

There’s all the ways I’m afraid of love

But I still wanna be

Here with you

Do you mind? For a moment I want to stay

We laughed until we cried

In my mind you remained

I woke up with that song of love you sang

Humming in my brain

But I forgot the words

Do they sting when they are heard?

Or do they sing, the way to rain

A heavy peace down on my heart

Sometimes I, I feel like, I didn’t want it, I didn’t want it this way

Was it a dream?

Then what does it mean?

When all my self indulgence

All falls back down on me

I’m out on a limb

I wanna begin

There’s all the ways I’m afraid of love

But I still wanna be

Here with you

So I’m not feeling around to being brave?

What is love, if not forever, is it love?

You broke me open, when you cut me up

I’m afraid of love, but I can never have enough

It takes me over, but it takes time

Is that alright?