Absent

I breathe the absence of life, in a part of every breath I take

Inhaling afterthoughts of ruin...and regret

So no hope remains as I take another glass of pain

And I swallow knowing things will stay the same

I see that everything has gone so wrong for me

And I wait and see if I can welcome back the light

I'm following the suffering

And the ones that never heal

They're a part of me and I can't just leave them behind

So I cry these acid tears, as I weep for those like me

The ones whose apathy, ahderes them to this fate

So I lie awake and the bottle always calls my name

With an offering that I cannot refuse

Who will come to taste the quality of despair

It's so sweet that I enjoy it time and time again

is it charity that calls to me selling fragments of her soul

Is a part of me foolish enough to indulge

When the time comes let the blow come quickly and the blood run red

I worry not 'cause I'm already dead

So I'll not speak my last words

For I've already said enough

Their painted on the walls

So will you bleed for me

And together we will cross the sea

Two for the ferryman to take our souls across

I see that everything has gone so wrong for me

And I wait to see if I can welcome back the light

Following the suffering for the best parts of my life

Now your rid of me

But I'm not the only one.