Flesh & Electricity

Each day, I ride my bike to the hospital

Walk around, check vital signs, and pretend to be useful

Sometimes, though, I really don’t know what I’m doing here

My father says it’s atonement for my reckless years

Like the antagonist from that book

For that class that I once took

I’ve been desensitized to the human body

That I could look at you naked

And all I’d see would be anatomy

You’re just bones and insecurity

Flesh and electricity to me

Each night, I try to find that feeling in my bed

The two-dimensional happiness

When you live your life through a camera lens

People stick together and they pull themselves apart

Dehydration, separation, like the chambers of my heart

And then the weight fell off like clothes

Never knowing where it goes

I’ve been desensitized to the human body

That I could look at you naked

And all I’d see would be anatomy

You’re just bones and insecurity

Flesh and electricity to me

Tearing labels off your bottles in a living room

Feeling nothing, wanting nothing

Because that part of me left with you

Now, I plan my day around the eight and twelve medication rounds

There are no shocks or surprises

No, it’s nothing like that

‘Cause I've been desensitized to the human body

That I could look at you naked

And all I’d see would be anatomy

You’re just bones and insecurity

Flesh and electricity like me