Song For Charlie

When I asked what closure felt like

No one could give me a solid answer

When we turned around the corner

I felt my entire body shake

I swear it didn’t look like him

Those hands were dirty and that was comforting

And when she said don’t be afraid

For the last time, I touched his face

And I drove over sunday morning

I couldn’t stop shaking the whole way

And she walked over to the thermostat

Said the house needed to be warm today

And we all sat there in silence

Listening to our mother cry

And I felt it when it hit

I feel everything

And I heard you practicing in the shower

All the things you were gonna say

Though I didn’t hear specific words

Boy, I tell you, you sounded brave

You were that little bit too late

Probably wouldn’t have changed him anyway

But if I said that I felt the same

Would it feel okay?

And I keep his photo in my wallet

Yeah, I watch home videos sometimes

To hear his voice and see him smile

To heal the impact on my life

Still hoping I’ll see him on the street

Or in the house he built around me, my sisters, and my brother

For the strongest woman I’ve ever known, my mother

And I keep his photo in my room

And how he looked so much like you

Charlie, you’re gonna be okay

At least tomorrow, if not today

And charlie, I’m gonna be okay

And there is no one we can blame

Charlie, you’re gonna be okay

At least tomorrow, if not today

Keep playing your songs everyday

Oh, and when you’re not okay

You can always call

And it was no one’s fault