Serenade my life

Yeah, uh

Shady!

It's Cashis

Serenade my life

Shady!

Focusing the opening emotions that I hold within

Surrounded by my inner demons thinkin' I should roll with them

I don't wanna go to hell, I don't wanna go to jail

But I wanna kill a man, maybe I should kill myself

I been sittin' contemplatin', suicidal situations

Now I'm placed in a position, to abide the whole nation

And I'm spottin' niggas hatin', I'm just watchin' bein' patient

Prayin' for my own existence, some say I'm a mental patient

Drugs are taking over me, sorrow is patrolling me

Follow my blind heart, tomorrow run the cold streets

I been crying for a week, Will is weak, can I speak

Without somebody judging me, pushing me and shoving me

Mamma if you love me you won't really let me go

But I live for a cause that I don't really know

Am I wrong if I cry, but I can't 'cause it's time

For the truth in my life, I will be crucified

CHORUS 2x

I'm sittin' back patient, patient

I'm ready and waitin', waitin'

for my homicide, serenade my life

And I can't escape it, escape it

I'm ready and waitin', waitin'

for my homicide, serenade my life

Conversatin' with my brothers spirit, I hear him saying

Strangers in the dark lurkin' you just gotta feel them waiting

I ain't eatin', I ain't sleepin', closets open and I ain't breathin'

Death is running over me, my conscience keep on showin' me

Ever since my early teens, knew this was my destiny

World gotta feel my pain, I'm no longer questioning

When, where or how I will, happen 'fore when I get killed?

Never take my voice away, through records sales is how I live

View me as the realist nigga, poppin' pills drinkin' liquor

Sucker to depression makes me turn to my aggression, quicker

Got a lotta homies dead, buried all in my head

Cry inside every time I ever stop to read my hands

How could I fear a man? I've never been near a man

All of y'all fraudulent, y'all don't like it, kill me then

How could I fear a man? I've never been near a man

All of y'all fraudulent, y'all don't like it, kill me then

Chorus

Sunk into a sphere of svelte, misery being dealt

My only fear is lyrically, mean not being felt

I'm much harder, much smarter, more true, fuck you!

No matter what the conversation, this is what it comes to

Imagine staring at your friends, feelin' that they don't love you

Ya ride till the end but they feel, they above you

I gotta chosen few, name my homies in the song

If fire arms murkin' me when I'm gone

I tried to be a better man, baby if you understand

My love for you is true but I ain't really love myself

See nobody wanna help, better off to end this way

Talkin' to my only friends, weed leaves, Hennessey

Came from a broken home, smoke till the dope is gone

Listen to the words homie, this ain't really just a song

Came from a broken home, smoke till the dope is gone

Listen to the words homie, this ain't really just a song

Chorus

Serenade my life

Shady Records on Cashis

This is real shit

Serenade my life

I ain't scared, I ain't runnin', I'm waitin'

???? nigga

Ha!

Live as a man, die as a man