A Lesser Rate

Oh I can relate to all of those things you said

about life's little ugly things

but I never thought I'd have to.

I didn't wanna know

just what it'd feel like

to lose focus on this frequency

and I'll drown in my dishonesty

and I'm laughing now,

hysterically because I should be further than I am.

We're setting up to fall at a lesser rate.

And what can I say when I do the opposite of

what's always been good for me?

I don't show it when I mean it.

And I'm all of those things

which I won't own up to:

I show no common f***** decency

and it's never made no sense to me.

I'm in a bathroom thinking horribly

because I should be further than I am.

And I spent all money to get to sleep

but when I die in dreams

I don't wake up