Please Don't Kill Yourself

Please don't kill yourself

I'm talking to you

And I don't pretend to know everything that you've been through

But if it's shame you feel, just know that I've sinned too

And if it's pain you're feeling

Just know that that's something I went through

I don't know your story but I know you and me are a lot alike

So let me talk to you for a minute, while I've got this mic

I was 18 when I pulled a gun out

At the time it felt like my options had run out

So I put that barrel to my chest and I pulled the trigger halfway

I tried to muster up the courage to put myself away that day

But halfway with that trigger pulled, I stopped

Tears flooded my eyes and that pistol dropped

And I sat in my room and I sobbed for an hour

On the outside I was fine on the inside a coward

The noise of my depression had gotten louder and louder

I had planned a way out on a baptism shower of gunpowder

I've been lied to just like you're being lied to now

Other people can't help you but I might know how

Because I've walked in your shoes and I've been at my lowest

And if you don't know anything, know this

You might tell me you're gonna kill yourself

And you're close to this

But God wants to meet you

In the middle of your hopelessness

God wants to give you a way out of these feelings of doubt

And the sounds of chaos might be

Reverberating around you like heavy metal

But confusion isn't from God it's straight from the devil

And he wants to silence the noise and bring peace to you

And I promise if you just ask him he'll see you through

You got to this place because you tried fighting your own fight

And where did that get you?

Except contemplating about taking your own life

And if you got bullied to this point

I'm sorry you went through that

But God wants to take those words

From your attackers and send them back

You don't have to be defined by what people said about you

Let me pick you up if you don't know how to

You're not alone, man you've got a friend in me

You got better days ahead of you, I just pray you begin to see

Know that everything the devil did to you he wants you to replay

But everything the devil took from you God wants to replace

Listen to me right now, you better look me right in the face

You were created for more than to die in this place

Don't do it man, please don't take your life

Just take my hand we'll make this right

I promise if you do this you'll regret it

You wake up in eternity remember, I said it

And you wished so bad you could just go back

I'm here for you right now, please just know that

And if you think you're alone in this fight, you've been lied to

That depression came after me and I nearly died too

I thought suicide was the only way and death was meant for me

The devil played his music and I sat front row through that symphony

I walked through the fire and I felt that heat but I pushed past

The [?] and I stood to my feet

I walked out and I refuse to look back

I took my depression and threw it right back, into that wood stack

And that fire must have blazed 50 feet high

And now I plan on leaving a legacy to look back on some day when I die

And right now I'm telling you to

Stand up too, deep down inside you know

It's the right thing to do

Think about your family, think about you

Don't kill yourself, please don't do it

Whatever you're facing God will see you through it

I had a fan kill himself and his mum asked if I could come see her

She was depressed and asked if I could meet her

Two weeks later depression beat her

She ran into a telephone pole without a seat belt in a two seater

And I wish right now I could crawl through these speakers

And somehow convince you not to go the same route she did

I wish I could change the fact that you feel defeated

I wish I could lock my arms around you and tell the devil to beat it

But I can't reach everyone even though I do my best to try

Some people believe the lie that it's just best to die

And they think it's the simple way out

But they're not here to see the way things play out

They don't see the hurt they caused, the pain they leave

I take this seriously this isn't a game to me

Even thinking about ending your life is living dangerously

So please just listen to my voice, right now you have a choice

You can choose life or you can get drowned by the noise

Please don't do it, please ask for help

If not for your family, do it for yourself