HIGH/BYE

Growing up is like growing

Into a plastic mould you don't fit in

But at the same time you're

Being torn limb from limb

And you can feel the walls

Crushing you skin

Like a vacuum being attached

To a plastic bag

You're watching yourself

Shrink from within

And I've been so compliant

I keep lying, I've been trying to get out

Of this grey space between two lives

But everybody's dying

Did you lie about being bi?

Do you still get high?

And, oh fuck, the years have gone by

But you don't say hi anymore

Real life is too understimulating for my generation

Stopping at the shops at one a. M

'Cause I forgot to eat again

And you guys all went to uni

And made loads of friends and did loads of drugs

And I stayed at home, and I got a job

Now I'm staring at my phone waiting for a call

Did you lie about being bi?

Do you still get high?

And, oh fuck, the years have gone by

But you don't say hi anymore

I thought I could see stars out of my window

But it turns out that it was light

Refracting out of somebody else's home onto

Tiny raindrops, tiny droplets of water trying to make

The faintest impression on people

The faintest impression in an ocean

Did you lie about being bi?

Do you still get high?

And, oh fuck, the years have gone by

But you don't say hi anymore

Walking to work and there

And men spitting on the floors

Knocking on doors standing outside the pub

Cigarette in one hand, beer in the other

Nothing ever happens here

And nothing ever will

Grab another beer and find a

Will to live, it's a safe space

Painted with faces grey, but

No one ever makes it out of

Here alive anyway

About being bi?

Do you still get high?

And, oh fuck, the years have gone by

But you don't say hi

Lie about being bi?

Do you still get high?

And, oh fuck, the years have gone by

But you don't say hi anymore