Is The World Strange Or Am I Strange?

Is the world strange or am i strange?

Is the world strange or am i?

Is the world mean or am i mean?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Everyone i know,

I don't wanna see you anymore.

I don't even know what i know you for.

All i know is that you made me feel abnormal

In mostly all ways,

All day, asked kids when we play

And i still felt that i had to try to be okay with you.

And truly

I wanted you to like me,

Not spite me

Without explanation uprightly,

But even as a kid,

My heart's what i hid

Because something about it and this planet don't fit.

I could never build relationships the way you did

So you were only friends with what i pretended.

Every day,

Every minute,

And now i'm stuck so far in it.

This game will mean death for me if i don't win it.

I'm a coward,

A deserter,

An anonymous flirter.

I had me a woman but my bullshit just hurt her.

Very much the same, when i was at school,

Felt like i was from a joke gene pool,

Created to be confused.

Should never have to choose

Between what i am,

And what the world understands,

But if i never did i would be more isolated.

Oh sure i'd be hated,

So it's way better if i fake it.

Fake me,

Fake these words.

I'm sick of polishing this turd for this proud little planet,

That can't understand it.

But really, it's clearly my fucked mind that's had it.

I tried,

Don't know why,

But myself was no help.

People saw shit inside me

It's clear they felt it wasn't their job to comprehend,

So i began learning them,

To spare them the expense

I began my descent to the future.

Time here's not like when you're eight.

It's real like mistakes i just realised i made,

Like thinking people are worth having to suffer

Painting over yourself in their favourite colour.

Or maybe i'm just a clock with no real face,

Who tried to tick tock but could not find a pace.

Is the world strange or am i strange?

Is the world strange or am i?

Is the world mean or am i mean?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Is the world dead or am i dead?

Is the world dead or am i?

Is the world fucked or am i fucked?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

And i wished you would be harsh to me

And explain to my face every fault you could see.

Instead you were silent,

Yes you let me be,

To continue the search for what mask you could treat

Like a motherfucking

Normal human being.

Other kids in your club didn't have masks to bring.

They didn't act different

And that was sufficient

For them to receive all of your trust that i didn't.

That's why i can't care now about you lot,

'cause from the beginning

You never said 'get lost!'

You never said 'fuck off cos!

Take that prick mask off!

We as a world have decided you're just not what

We're looking for in a long term acquaintance.

We don't like hearing your emotionless statements

And your i-can't-play-ball-with-the-world conversations.

Kill yourself now

So in the future we're free

From your songs about fucked up personality'.

I always prayed that you would punch me in the face

And shout 'you are a waste of space

Get out, my family say you can't come round'.

Wanted everyone more than they ever wanted me

I worked for them,

Worked for their company,

Because it wasn't really me they befriended,

Extended friendly courtesy.

It was whatever mask i wore

That applied to their sort.

That applied to them so much

They answered the door

When i knocked after school

With my trusty skateboard.

And i'm paying for it now

I'm a rain-filled cloud

That can't drop the huge storm it allowed

To build up inside it,

No not a single drip.

I can never get rid of what makes me a dick.

I say: 'sorry,

But it's not my fault i exist',

So just kiss my ass people,

I'm glad you won't miss me when i'm gone,

I don't wanna be in your history.

It's just best to forget me

Even if you liked me

You still never met me.

Is the world strange or am i strange?

Is the world strange or am i?

Is the world mean or am i mean?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Is the world dead or am i dead?

Is the world dead or am i?

Is the world fucked or am i fucked?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Is the world strange or am i strange?

Is the world strange or am i?

(why is the world so strange?)

Is the world mean or am i mean?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

(guess i'll never know)

Is the world dead or am i dead?

Is the world dead or am i?

(why am i so dead?)

Is the world fucked or am i fucked?

Guess i won't know 'til i die.

(guess i'll never know)