An Ancient Inherited Shame

Femininity, a sacred life

My goals and dreams achieved, or soon they might

Unintruded being, innocent

Young, with a hopeful future to be spent

I can't believe my idiocy

You came along with your invasion

Your act of violence not of lust

Upon me...

Racing through these darkened streets at night

Fleeing from this terror that haunts me

I am chosen, this can't be right

The pain that your thrust brings

I don't want your flesh

I'm not your whore

But you want my blood

I'm not a whore

Trapped down here inside

A nightmare that's become reality

A heinous violation

Of my humanity

Right before my eyes I see my world

Fractured so precise by one so cold

Through your veins run ice, I beg of thee

As I lie paralyzed please let me be

From within your soul I stare

I don't think I'll live to see this end

You'll reign eternally through my nightmares

If I ever sleep again

The hatred directed at me 'cause of what I am

Is as chilling as the defilement itself

I wonder, what kind of beast is man?

What emotions are and not felt?

I don't want your flesh

I'm not your whore

But you want my blood

I'm not a whore

I can't even comprehend

Why this act has come to be

Proven time and time again

The ultimate sadistic release

This violent form of incarceration

Trapped by savagery, helpless I lie

I refuse this indoctrination

Though you shatter this inner sanctum of mine

An ancient inherited shame

Bonding women and horror

Outlasting the boundaries of time

Enslaved forevermore

Inherent crimes

Through generations has become

A terror cycle...

You can't see me but you feel me

You only want what you don't understand

You can't have me so you take me

Forever scarred where you've stamped your brand

You look in my eyes and you tell me

What do you see?

Of this I'm deserving?

You can't see me but you feel me

You only want what you don't understhand

You can't have me so you take me

Forever scarred where you've stamped your brand

You need to crush me with your lividity

Does this make you feel more like a man

You can't have me, so you rape me

My innocence strangled by your hand

This must be necrophilia, for I am dead inside

Your violent misogyny, your strength drowns my cries

In shock, I'm crippled with disbelief

This can't be happening to me

Oh god, this hurts, I'm bleeding from friction

"Unconcious" I'm pleading to be...

You cannot imagine the anger I feel

Nor can you imagine the pain and despair

This double jeopardy soon happens again

When they scrape me for semen and hair

My mind is frozen with your face intact

This atrocity from which I haven't been spared

From now on, I'll only know lovemaking through

An act of intense terror

The malevolence which pours over me

You fill me with your rage

It's mortifying, diabolical,

Controlling through this stage

I struggle to cope with what's happening

I'm praying for my death

I've done nothing wrong, I've been victimized

So I'll pray for yours instead

The physical torment inflicted on me

Is insufferable but it doesn't compare

To your terrible criminal mentality

And the scars I'll forever bear

To live through this brutal show of force

Will cause me years of torment and grief

Awaiting this misery to run its course

As I scream out innocent pleas

This violent form of incarceration

Trapped by savagery, helpless I lie

I refuse this indoctrination

Though you shatter this inner sanctum of mine

An ancient inherited shame

Bonding women and horror

Outlasting the boundaries of time

Enslaved forevermore

I will force myself to carry on

And vengeance will be ultimately mine

If you are not imprisoned soon

By my hands you will die...

I don't what your flesh

I'm not your whore

But you wnat my blood

I'm not a whore

Through rape you've created me

A victim not above revenge

A churning, seething mass of hate

But you haven't conquered my soul