Depression

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 'bout the good times

Wish I could get those back

I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind

And they go on these tracks

I'm not ready to erase all my memories

I fight depression

And I let it get the best of me

Now there's nowhere to run, nowherе to go

Look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor

Fillin' up the space inside my heart

And my home

Drownin' out these thoughts

Until they leave me alone

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

These thoughts are drainin' all my energy

I try to tell 'em to God

They said I'm goin' insane

And then they recommended therapy

And I go and talk to a man

Who's gettin' paid to explain

He started saying that

The chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain

Ain't connectin' to accomplishments

Associated with movin' on in life and passive things

That my heart cannot contain

So the happiness won't sustain

And he read me my options

He said: Here goes a pill

Only take two, eat a meal

And they don't know how I feel

(Don't know how I feel)

I can't find myself

(Can't find myself)

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

(Think I might need help)

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

(Took the cards they dealt)

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

(When I'm by myself)

I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts

Or should I leave 'em to float?

I got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat

I've been anchored in pain

The weight is makin' me choke

It's gettin' harder to breathe

It's pullin' right at my throat

I've been hopin' for change

But don't know how to restart

They say you ain't a man

When you're exposin' your heart

Then they say you insane until it tears you apart

And then it cuts you so deep

And they can tell by the scars

We can only see change

When we accept who we are

Try to run from the shame and you will never get far

Don't you bottle the pain and live your life in the dark

You're meant to break from those chains

And shine as bright as a star

Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression

Is the reason you won't make it

Or that happiness is not in your cards

With our God, you can beat all the odds

Keep your faith and you'll never be lost and say

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

(I think I might need help)

But I pushed all of 'em away

(I pushed all of them away)

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days