Shit Luck

I cried and I sang

For the loss of my only father

I categorized my emotions into lines

On a black piece of paper

I prayed to a God

Who's never answered

To dry the tears of my mother

Misplacin' the failed

Acceptance of myself into others

I'm feelin' the guilt

Of being selfish too selfish

Too tired for that compromise

So I'll drown my confusion

In a bottle of poison

For my thoughts to just stop

And I'll pick it up in the morning

I'll spend my time waitin'

For that train to arrive

I'm tunin' that note

Just to pass the time

This shit luck won't last too long

But it's up to me

To kick it up a notch

I'm scatchin' deep

In this monotone beat

This paper thin pallette

Laid so meticulously

To see a stretch of red

Down my grey tainted neck

And I keep searchin' for that answer

Of why I keep breathing

When those consequences

Make my core rot so seamlessly

With that unfailing tide

Of drownin'' days

Blacked out nights

Suffocating lungs

And ill fated strides

I'll spend my time waitin'

For that train to arrive

I'm tunin' that note

Just to pass the time

This shit luck won't last too long

But it's up to me

To kick it up a notch

So baby wipe those virgin tears

From your cheek

Your innocence spent

On a liar and a fake

But deep inside

That broken tattered corpse you know

This is not who you were meant to be

So spend your time waitin'

For that train to arrive

And tune that note

Till it sounds just right

This shit luck won't last too long

But it's up to you

To make it stop