The Quiet Disconnect

Unfamiliar stone of gray marked beginning and end of day

Reality sinks like an anchor in water

My body can't stop shaking, convulsing

This is tragic and sickening

This is the quiet disconnect

No father should ever have to bury his son

Every breath exhaled leads me closer

But I'm starting to panic

Because I am finding it hard to grasp and

Comprehend that no ink could spill from this pen

And meet the words to send, to tell you I can't exist if you're non-existent

Find your home in the sky to rest your soul

Even if your voice won't move past your lips, I know we'll speak again

And though I know you've died

I swear to God to try to keep your memory alive

We all flirt with death but feel like were invincible

Until one moment defines that we could be the next

Is there a point in drifting through life when

Everything I love will pass, decay, and die?

My face is the pale-white of your skin

My lungs have no breath to be held from within

I just want to know you’re safe and sound

Not just a body beneath the ground

Oh God, I fear certain death and the end of day

But what I fear the most is who you're going to take away

If there has to be a beginning, then I want you to show me the end

Fire spreads but I won't let it burn this bridge

To give them life when my friends are dead