One Flew East

The orderlies shuffle across black and white marble

They're bustling reminders that no one can slow down the days

The white coats and black boards, they conspire behind locked doors

They don't want to tell you how long until it eats me away

I wish you would wake me when I'm violently shaking

Tossing and turning through dreams where I die giving up

I wish it had been you that I'd given my heart to

Instead of just wasting these moments by biting my tongue

And I've been having dreams of black and white infirmaries

With the palest walls that always stand in silence

If I thought that you could hear, I'd whisper in your ear

All the things I couldn't come around to writing

I've been constantly stepping with these unwanted weapons

Like the things that I think and I feel will destoy everything

So I'll hold a flame to the things I won't tell you

And sift through the ashes for some kind of reason to sing

And I'll bleed right out of these wounds that I gave myself

And I'll live out, live out this life with no body's help