I Never Got To See The West Coast

So is it courage or strength

and is that what I'm waiting for?

If I could just kill myself

would it also kill the remorse?

I wanted so badly to catch a break

but I'm only breaking down.

I'm still here and standing

but if it's up to me

I don't think I'll be hanging around

The drink slips down my throat

and the burn cures nice and slow.

All the worst parts I wouldn't want you to see

The only parts left of me

Now, here I am

Just a kid without a better plan.

But it's the simple thoughts that haunt me the most.

I never got to see the west coast

Spent my nights just asking why

Would God let me become like this.

Was it a joke from the start?

Was I suppose to laugh more at it?

And everyone's quoting their teachers and preachers

but their words make me feel so alone.

No one ever says that they've had those thoughts

in the middle of the night.

No one ever admits that they waited to take their life.

The drink slips down my throat

and the burn cures nice and slow

All the worst parts I wouldn't want you to see

The only parts left of me

Now, here I am

Just a kid without a better plan.

But it's the simple thoughts that haunt me the most.

I never got to see the west coast

But it's the life I dreamed I have

The love I've found in my grasp

The words I could share with someone.

Those thoughts keep the breath in my lungs

That tomorrow my hope will become

to feel a love that can't be undone.

And save a wretch like me.

So if the drink slips down your throat

and the burn cures nice and slow.

All the worst parts you wouldn't want me to see

The same parts, I have in me

Now, scares me to thinking this way

I feel just like you do

But when you're by yourself you should know

One day we got to see the west coast.