You Stole God From Me

Reaching out his hand to shake mine

My eyes caught his

I saw it then, I was dangerous

He was glad to be done with me

Not yet an enemy but maybe something even more sinister

A single voice could ruin everything

But my soul said run even when my heart said stay

So I carried the blame knowing this would only get worse

And it did

The pain isn't what drives your fist into the wall

It's not the hurt inside you that slams you into a panic

And causes you to run in fear

It's knowing what it was like to live without the pain

Now knowing the better days are behind

But there was nothing you could have done to save yourself

So get over it

Rub some dirt on it and

Let's go

The God I loved became silent

I chased after Him like a jealous lover

I closed my eyes and prayed for relief

But no one answered

Take the child and make them trust you

Fill their heads with Hell but promise them an escape

The Good Lord will make his face shine upon us all

His light will reveal what you must hate

I keep on searching for salvation

I couldn't help myself

There's too much sugar in the sermon

I wanted more than this

But it was masturbation

An image of a God that made me turn my back on

Something real that I could call home

Where blood reveals fear or family

Something real that I could lean on

To be human still but loved the same

I saw the world begin to eat itself

Void of answers and left to bleed

We picked up our words and threw them like stones

Holy and righteous for everyone to see

(Everybody knows)

Did you notice

(Oh oh oh)

Did you notice me?

(That's just the way it goes)

I relive those days

(Oh oh oh)

Did you notice?

I won't let you forget it

I never said I forgot you, forsake you

I only asked if the road ever divided

I touched a hand that was reaching out for me

But wasn't it long ago that it was decided

On to the night sky

That lays before us

Single bright lights

That join in the chorus

I won't stop to hear your disdain or adoration

I lick my wounds and I carry the scars

And I keep on moving I keep changing

I would never go back

There is nothing to go back to

So you tell them, You tell them that I'm lost

Preach that you are found

But you stole God from me

And replaced him with your certainties