Not This

I'm still takin the train and

My metro card's empty

The windows of the stores when I walk by tempt me

I was on MTV but I don't have a Bently

F*** it in my pockets I barely gotta twenty

Dollar bill but I go to shows

And make you holla still

I gotta pay my bills and it's not like Prada will

I go to the check cashing spot

Will I always be a have not

Never gonna live in no lavish spot

Always gonna live at home with mom and pop

Shop at Old Navy and Payless

I'm just tryna be honest that why I say this

Hopefully radio plays this I doubt it though

Yo pass that Olde English

Yeah I be rockin the discotech

Every single night no self respect

Sometimes I feel like I party way too much

Premieres openings and shows and such but

What else is a girl to do

Go home by myself at 2

In the AM I'm sayin I'm not playin

I'm doin the same stupid shit and it's day in day out

I know that there's gotta be a way out

But I keep drinking and I just stay out

At the hot spots with superstars and the hardrocks

I wish that I could disappear to the boondocks

Why not, maybe I'll hire me a pilot

To take me away to the shade and I'll stay

Get a slice at Ray's like we did when we was kids

Something's gotta give real soon but it's not this

On the real I be hatin myself sometimes

I know you do too but it's okay sometimes

I'm tryin to escape the grind sometimes

It ain't gonna get better if I do some lines so

Enough with the parties and bullshit

I go to the parties and bullshit

It never gets better when I do this shit

So stressed I wanna get up and quit

It's like maybe tonight's the night and

Maybe if I socialize I'll feel alright but those

Never seem to be the best laid plans

Never did I dream I'd go to foreign lands I just

Wanna lay in creamy sands

Doing nothin all day with my dreamy man maybe

Buy that house across from the projects

So I can stay trading gossip like stock tips

It's not at the after party

It's not in the hotel lobby

It's not in magazines

And It's not even in my dreams

The things that I need

Ain't in the vip

Dont know what it is

It's definitely not this