Disheartenment

Lying in a dark corner

The black candle light is dying out

Trying to refuse this suffering

As coldness burns my pale naked flesh

I faced my fears a thousand times

Endless doubts - Life of paranoia

I try to find a way out

From this state of suicidal urge

I watch with empty eyes the blade

As tears begin to fall down my face

Another night alone with myself

At one with melancholy and depression

I bleed because the dark is near

I cry as i realize you can' t be here

I need to caress your skin in the night

But now my only friend remains this knife

Why must i live with these fears?

I know my only tragedy is my mind

Sometimes i think i'm wasting all the joys

And with this bitter thought i fear to die

I feel so jaded now, so far away

I can't face next morning with this pain

Another cut lacerates my flesh

Sometimes i think it will be the last

I'm only trying to objectivate this hate

I prove towards myself and life itself

I only need to watch these fifty wounds

I opened upon my body in the night

I only need to stop these sick death thoughts

And cry for joy when you'll be here again

I'll watch you sleeping naked at my side

I'll kiss you and this blood will stop to flow

Everyone can kill himself one day

Life brings pain and suffering on our way

Cut your wrists, it's simpler than it seems

But in death you'll know...

Disheartenment wins