you in everything

I prayed the day you passed

But the heavens didn't listen

So we held you till your dark skin dulled to fair

Went out to smoke a dart

Finally get some time alone

But just broke down and held my wife beneath the stairs

'Cause I saw our little life

Ascending from the street

And flung from overpass to overpass

Collapsing in a heap

But to cradle you the last days was an honour

And a miserable feat

I still need you in everything

I will need you in everything

The places you have walked

I consider holy ground

And I will love the things you love

Despite my prior thoughts about

And I'll think of you each day

As if to nourish me from inside out

Now I speak to you in tongues

And seek for you in pain

And long for echoes in the silence

Born of islands and of rain

Every hymn and all the sounds

That bind the many of us fiercely to the sea

I will hear you in everything

I will hear you in everything

I prayed for you in song

And kneaded through your veins

And chased the morsels of your voice

And gave you shots to ease the pain

When you asked us for some wine, we bought the best stuff

And we laughed and watched you drink

Now I smell you in the air

And I pause to breathe you in

And I am torn apart your closet

And devoured the scent within

You ascend in every skyline

And all the water and the streets of Grey Lynn

I will feel you in everything

I will feel you in everything

How do I face the world?

Or raise a fucking kid?

Or see beauty in the earth

And all its majesty replete

When I've spent the better part of my twenties

Doing self-indulgent bullshit on repeat

So if there's something of you here

In the ever changing light

Holding close to my unsteady heart

And bonding me to life

May your spirit never leave me

In the boredom and the utterly sublime

'Cause I will look for you every time

I will look for you every time

It'll torture me at first

Then it'll hurt a little less

And I will pore through every piece of you

Till nothing new is left

Just your eyes in my reflection

And the heavy thing now beating in my chest

We held you in your bed

We washed you in your sheets

And sang you hymnals from the islands

Till you drifted off to sleep

When I kissed the hands that raised me

For the last time

And stared out into the street

I will see you in everything

I will see you in everything

I will see you in everything

I will see you in everything