You Completely Destroy Me

You completely destroy me

You destroy me like I never knew you could

I'm not over you and I never will be

The thing about love is that simple things

Like her lips and her eyes, break my heart

That they're not mine

And I dont know who's they'll be

Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile

I used to feel warmth in the look on her face

I've been left an empty sheel to wither and fade away

I used to think of all the things that we'd be

Now I only think of all the things that would never really were

I used to call you mine, but now you just don't know

What am I left to do but just stand here in the cold?

All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head

Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You're everything to me, and you always will be

Deep in my hearth that aches for the sound of your voice

But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done

For the person I've become that you learn to love

But then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me

I mean all the words that I say please belive me

And see me as the person you always knew I was

I've never been perfect, not in a single way

And that day you saved me

Is when I fell from grace

I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone to live this life all on my own

And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close

And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most

I've always been too scared to be proprely diagnosed

Because you were my pill, but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter that you wrote

Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go

And you saved me from myself, and that's something I hope you know

But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe

Because you were the one that gave me everything I need

But now this pain won't subside, I just can't belive you chose to leave

You were my reason for living, how could you do such a heinous thing?

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea

And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me

You protecting me from the storm, and gave me a chance at life

And I loved the way of cared, and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor

You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight

Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they're right

Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope your happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed

And the things you said to me

You'll never leave my heart

Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand

Why you chose to leave

I can't do this on my own

I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost

And you're nowere to be seen

And I can't hear your voice

I won't see your message on the screen

We wont have a family

We won't have a house

We won't raise our kids

You won't be my spouse

We won't go all together

Like we always planned

You disappeared forever

And alone here shall I stand