Heather Nicole

At night in my window i see a silhouette

Crying heavy tears look how wet my pillow gets

Throughout my days i don't smile i just get upset

And since you left look at all the shit that it affects

I take a picture of your face and i just hold it up

Kiss it, then reminisce on when it was both of us

It's hard for me to open up, i'm always talking to myself

But to nobody else

Some say that church or maybe counseling could probably help

But they don't know about all of my idiotic lies

All the fucking times i left you traumatized

Swore up and down to you saying i'mma try

And never did, i try not to cry but i feel bad i didn't apologize

It's time i cough it up and tell more, my soul is taken never sell yours

I did some shit i probably coulda been in jail for

Bury me deep inside hells core

And don't let me out until you hear bells roar

She said, you never loved me

You just controlled me

If you fuck around i'm calling the police

But all i wanted to say was i'm sorry

Oh how i wish that could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you

It's hard to forget, my heart is a brick

I tell myself marcus, i thought that you were smarter than this

The mess i put you through was worse than pearl harbor and shit

I'd always harm you and flip, mentally scar you and trip

Sometimes i'd argue and get, the nerve to call you a bitch

Then bruise your back against the dresser that i tossed you against

My juliet at the time i never thought you was it

I do now but shit your gone, so i just offer you this

A song to you, through it i open the crack in my chest

And show the whole world i've always had a lack of respect

For women who went to my life, i look to vengeance as knife

Intentions to fight, if you thinking i was senseless you right

Now every sentence i write, i think twice on it so i don't regret

Cause only stress lies in a simple mind of loneliness

I'm an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest

Welcome to my life this is how painful my stories get

She said, you never loved me

You just controlled me

If you fuck around i'm calling the police

But all i wanted to say was i'm sorry

Oh how i wish that could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you

Now use this track as a lesson

All you guys out there who have some aggression

Towards your woman it don't have to get hectic

That crap is pathetic, now look at me i have to regret it

I can't go near her or nothing, she'll probably have me arrested

The only thing i could do is just make a track with a message

And hope she hears it so she could know i was badly affected

I never meant to be that type of guy

But i realized that i was, and because of it i'm throwing my sinister life aside

I can cry at any moment just thinking about it

Sometimes i hide it from the folks that i'm hanging around with

I should apply for a new soul cause i think its invalid

Somebody told me when i die i'll be safe but i doubt it

The grudge she holds against me, it hurts me so severely

She won't come near me, i thought that time was supposed to cure me

I'm so alone and weary, writing songs to heal me

I swear that i'm sorry heather, i mean it so sincerely

She said, you never loved me

You just controlled me

If you fuck around i'm calling the police

But all i wanted to say was i'm sorry

Oh how i wish that could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you

You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that i was sorry

Just leave me alone, stay out my head, i wish that i could tell you