Manateen

I feel like im becoming

a butterfly

or a golden bee

my smile is like razorblades

when I share

it cuts bloody deep

my body is in the magazines

my face on the TV

my voice on the radio

thats me in my dreams

but when I open my eyes

im just a piece of SHIT!

A WORTLESS COWARD

A VAPID WHORE

A MORAL-LESS REFUGEE

COVERED IN SORES

A BLITHERING SEA COW

LOST IN ITS DREAMS

NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH

NOBODY WANTS ME AT ALL

NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH

wet blue world--- it fills me up

I find im deep inside

waves crash and I breathe water

but I havent died

I wont come up

I wont come up for air

I wont come up

I wont come up for air

.....and beneath the waves

I hide my head in darker waters

and nobody sees

....I cut myself

and hope to draw you in

but even sharks pass by

please explain

all alone im growing colder

laughter like cancer over my shoulder

mirrors like hetchets to the world of my face

you know im a complete . . . . . IM A COMPLETE DISGRACE

IM NOT A MANATEEN

IM NOT A MANATEEN

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

. . . .and beneath the sea

I give up and I descend

and im finally free

... and in the end

wet blue world ---fills me up

fills me deep inside

waves crash and I breath water

but I havent died

NEVER

WITH A FURIOUS POISON IN MY HEART

WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS

I LET THE TIDE TEAR ME APART

NEVER

WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY VEINS

WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS

I WONT HOLD MY BREATH AND WAIT FOR CHANGE

I DIE

ITS A SUICIDE

MY BODY SWALLOWED BY THE DEEP BLUE ABYSS

AND INTO THE ENDLESS TIDE

i wont come up

i wont come up

i wont come up for air tonight

i wont come up

i wont come up

i wont come up for air tonight

cold

and all alone

but now I give up