Drowning

it's four a.m. again

father, forgive me this sin

uncomfortable in this life, yeah

i can't put down this knife, yeah

i'm carving words in my arms, baby

hey, scars are part of my charm, maybe

i need the touch of a hand

this isn't what i had planned

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i need relief from this life

i wanna slip away into the night

don't wanna see the sun again

but can't get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind

i wish the ocean was warm

i feel like drowning

i'm losing my faith in me

i can't remember the last time i felt free

from voices inside my head

when i taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead

you say i'm out of control

at least i still have a soul

no, i don't need your advice

some compassion would be nice

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i can't take any more of your pills

they hold my head up

but still it feels so wrong

i can't believe the price that i've paid

for this chemically-induced, perceivably ideal, take-it-with-a-glass-of-water day

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