Unstable Boy

staring down the barrel of another holiday

force-fed a christmas carol of another time, another place, another way

what child is this who, who laid to rest

on mary's lap is sleeping

well, what child is this who, who feels so blessed

yet cannot keep from weeping

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i should be tending to the horses who intend to cart my joy

from now into forever, i'm just a lowly unstable boy

i'm a failure on a journey, but my strength is gathering

and it's only fair that i make it there, yeah, i'm on my way to mattering

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but all the way, on the way, i couldn't contain my fear

my lips only look rosy cuz my skin looks so white in here

shred up my fingers on this bottle cap that won't twist off

aching for the syrup that could cure me of this hacking cough

ask me how i'm feeling and i'll say i'm okay

though my mind is reeling, can't think of anything better to say

is that what you get for running a yellow light-

piss full of regret and a fix that doesn't last

i'm a super-cali-fragile piece of fucked up à la i need a spoonful of something fast

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stupid fucking world of mine

you keep moving the fucking finish line

you trick me over here, you hide it over there

you start another game when you see me starting to care, well

i don't expect you to hear me say

i'm gonna chew my way out of your lab rat cage someday

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