Bonus Oceans

Yeah, I've got friends who wanna catch up on old times

But that just makes me feel ashamed to be me.

And I've got friends who wanna relive the past

And deify memories

And they just scream to me

That if you don't die young

You're gonna live too long.

On the stoop of the apartment next to my shitty job

An old friend passed me on the street today

I said "Hello" and tried to catch up on old times

She walked the other way.

Maybe I seemed to scream

That if I got cancer or somebody shot me

I'd be like a child or something,

Asking doctors to do me favors

or cross my fingers and hope it gets better

Like a broken record, I seem to scream,

If you don't die young, you're gonna live too long.

I was getting drunk in a foreign ocean

Trying to wrap my head around problems

And all my bitterness just seemed passe.

Because I realized as soon as I said it

How long it'd take to swim from Jones Beach to Indonesia

And maybe you're waiting on a call from me.

And maybe you're working in a crowded restaurant

And you're the one who's got a life so fucked up

that you don't know what happened.

Just like you saw me working at some restaurant

Embarrassed 'cause my life was just so fucked up.

And I don't know how it happened