I'm Serious, I'm Sorry

I didn’t know that he got in a car crash

We could have been friends, could have got married

Could have had grandkids, sent them to college

Or at least attended each other’s weddings

I didn’t know that you stayed home for hours

Calling his parents asking for answers

Skipping your prom night, crying and praying

Up to a God that you never believed in

Meghan held your body

While you were sobbing at the party

And I couldn’t leave the kitchen

I ingested too much poison

I wanted to tell you I know how it feels when

The people you love just start disappearing

Ashamed that you took their presence for granted

But I didn’t want to seem condescending

I didn’t know that you’d relive the moment

The doctor came out with a frown and a clipboard

And you wandered home with no ride feeling stupid

That you thought that this was a regular visit

Meghan held your body

While you were sobbing at the party

And I couldn’t help from staring

And creating extra tension

Watching meghan hold your body

While you were sobbing at the party

And I couldn’t leave the kitchen

I ingested too much poison

Were you supposed to not go to college?

Stay in your mom’s house on the computer

Googling grief cures, talking to no one

Waiting for life to start feeling better?

Waiting for pain to not be a constant?

Waiting to feel like anyone’s honest?

Waiting for me to stop being sarcastic

Because I can’t accept (because I can’t accept)

Because I can’t accept all the bad things that happen

Oh, I swear I’m sorry

That I saw you at the party

That I stood there saying nothing

While you wept before your new friends

Oh, I’m serious, I’m sorry

Oh, I’m serious, I’m sorry