Just

My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Dear future self, where do I start?

They wouldn't be so hard on me if they knew my heart

If they knew the trials and tribulations that I was facin'

Just to get up on that mic, their dissaprovin' faces

But truthfully I understand at first glance

I wouldn't give me a chance either, that's just human nature

But the hate they spew at me is equal to or greater

That of someone wantin' me to say See ya later

Off myself, stop my breathing, words with hateful meanin'

Make me drop down to my knees and just pray to Jesus

To keep my mind from these dark thoughts that's creepin' in

I thought I was strong enough but I'm weakenin'

It's crazy, this world is really ran by guys

They don't look for females' talents, they listen with their eyes

But I gotta keep goin, I know that's a must

I just hope tomorrow's better, it's ya girl, Just

My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Dear future self, this shit is gettin' harder

I'm not gettin' the credit I deserve, I should be farther

And everyone's so scared to take a leap of faith

Even though they know I'm great

I'm surrounded by spineless and mindless fakes

They won't cosign, they're waitin' for someone else

I'm drownin', I'm barely alive, waitin' for someone to help

They goin' in on me online, why do I fuckin rhyme?

Bitch, you fuckin' white, go kill yourself tonight

Plus you're ugly, you got no ass, your looks are trash

I wouldn't fuck you with his dick wrapped in a garbage bag

Girls are even worse

A pussy's a gift and a curse

God forbid a bitch praisin' another bitch

We don't even know our own worth

I feel a number on my days, the end is on it's way

I walk around in a haze, depression ain't no phase

My breath is gettin' short, my spirit gettin' heavy

I feel the weight of the words, I think I must be ready

My brain is consumed with the deepest, darkest evil thoughts

I try to shake it out my head, my better judgement lost

And all along, I put my all into every song

I don't get how doin' somethin' you love could ever be so wrong

I guess I'll sleep on it, I'm tired

I don't remember what I took, but I'm higher

My diary the only one I trust

I hope tomorrow's better, your girl, Just

My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Dear future self, I'm a decade deep

I been grindin' 10 years and they still don't mention me?

What are they stupid? Do they not hear me on these tracks?

I knew I should of let what's his name put it in my ass

They went and got Ke$ha, Nicki, and Iggy

I know it's not a lot of girls, but why didn't they pick me?

I mean it's clear, no one does what I do

I sing, I rap, and I write my own shit too

I don't give a fuck, fuck the whole industry

Fuck every label head, I hope they all die fuckin' miserably

I hope your kids never ever meet their dreams

I hope your plane crashes, you and your whole team

Ain't that funny? Look what you fools do to me

I hope they get that shit right at your and my eulogy

I hope we both rot in hell together, we deserve it

Me for wishin' this wicked and you for destroyin' my purpose

And for every lonely troll online

I hope you develop the most aggressive form of cancer of the spine

Decay your body, while your mind is still intact

And I'ma send a postcard that reads I got your back

But you won this time, every dog has it's day

'Cause now I'm standin on a chair and I'm just one push away

From finally bein' at peace, blockin' my sorrow

And now I don't have to worry about a better tomorrow

My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Dear Justina, I know you're fightin' demons

But nothing in this world that's worth it, ever comes too easy

The human mind can play tricks, it gets dark and gory

It takes 10 years for an overnight success story

Just keep going, the journey's never perfect

I know the way they're treatin' you is crazy

But I promise it's worth it

You're gonna fall a few more times, don't mind the stumble

Take my word, there's a light here that ends the tunnel

It's more to it than the eye could ever see

You know that show with Nick Cannon

Yeah, the one that's on MTV?

Well that's right, Wild 'N Out, they about to hit you

You about to join on for Season 8, now that's official

Things are lookin' up, people recognize your flow

You about to see, the world is gonna know you're cold

And everything's about to blow up from there

You're a household name, people they stop and they stare

And years later, look, you chillin', got a family

At the crib, 3 Oscars and 5 Grammys

It's crazy, I mean life is but a dream

All of this is an outcome you could have never seen

Wait, hold up, everything's turnin' to grey

The babies, the Grammys, everything's slippin' away

Fuck, forget what I said

This is what could have been, you're dead