It's Just a Lot

I never knew

The sky could burn a hole into my empty head

I never knew

A smile could turn us into enemies instead

Oh, the never-ending bliss of moments that you missed

Returning back like waves for second tries at luck

The luck you didn’t have back then but now that it don’t matter much

It’s easy love and strangers acting like your oldest friends

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna hold onto the innocence I got

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna care for all the little things I got

I should have seen

The signs, clovers starting dying in the field

I shouldn’t be

Surprised when all the sudden all of it is real

Oh, I tried to write a book but I misunderstood what I had seen and so the story made no sense

And stories all depend on whose perspective you prefer is it an I or is it her

And does it matter in the end

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna hold onto the innocence I got

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna care for all the little things I got

I saw a film

And cried cause beauty has a way of crushing me

I took a pill

And sighed cause I’ve done things against which I believe

Oh, I think of you at night when my mind won’t stay quiet

And I’ve got someone sleeping peacefully at home, but peace don’t reach my bones

The sadness still remains and though I sing the same refrain

It all amounts to no one knows

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna hold onto the innocence I got

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot

I wanna care for all the little things I got

You get it right

You get it wrong

It never stops

It’s just a lot