Love Affair With Distance

I've lost my voice, I've said all I have to say.

You're thick as porcelain, as clear as cellophane.

I miss the nervous shakes, and miss the way it hurt,

the way it killed to think, that I had you first..

I had you first

So then I force a smile, I take the stage,

Now my knees are weak try to concentrate,

I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take..

I look into your eyes, see the chemicals,

you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost.

You're dead to me so why can't I let u go??

The phone is like a knife I drive into my ear.

I had a love affair with distance and with fear.

The bus is like a hearse, driving me from her,

she's as black as white, she the perfect curse.

She's the perfect curse

So then I force a smile, I take the stage,

Now my knees are weak try to concentrate,

I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take..

I look into your eyes, see the chemicals,

you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost.

You're dead to me so why can't I let u go??

And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie.

You could come down on me.

And if u saved my life, how could I survive?

You're the one that made me this way.

So then I force a smile, I take the stage,

Now my knees are weak try to concentrate,

I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take..

I look into your eyes, see the chemicals,

you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost.

You're dead to me so why can't I let u go??