Never Whole

So I've been trying to make time

For better or for worse, been putting you and myself first

And I just feel so paralyzed

Been substituting feeling with a bottle so don't empathize

I just wanna be alone

I don't need no reassurance, I can do it on my own

I hope that you can truly see

I'm draining all I have so I can give you everything

If this is all you can take

If you can carry all this weight

I'll move the earth for you, for you

And I feel like a runaway

Feel like I'm never whole

Yeah, I feel like a runaway

Feel like I'm never whole

I've been trying to follow through

For better or for worse, been taking steps away from solitude

Everything is different now

I see how all the words I've said have torn me up and let you down

I just wanna take away

The fear of ever losing or the fear I'll start accusing you

Yeah, I don't wanna see the day

We walk away defeated and decide to go our separate way

If this is all you can take

If you can carry all this weight

I'll move the earth for you, for you

And I feel like a runaway

Feel like I'm never whole

Yeah, I feel like a runaway

Feel like I'm never whole

So carry my soul, I'm losing my home

I'm feeling you slip 'cause you needed me more

Been doing my best to keep moving my feet

Been pressing so hard just to hold what I dream

You know that I'm tired

Know I want to be through

With whats trying to kill me baby

Know that you're struggling too

And I know I can be

Something stronger and true

These worries just paralyze me

But I'll do this for you

'Cause I feel like a runaway

Feel like I'm never whole

Sentimental living every day

But they tell me that I'm not alone

So carry my soul, I'm losing my home

I'm feeling you slip 'cause you needed me more

Been doing my best to keep moving my feet

Been pressing so hard just to hold what I dream