Diet Coke / inside

Aspartame isn’t the same as real sugar

Drinking Diet Coke never made me sweeter at all

Just smaller than I was before

Thought that if I were less of myself, maybe he would want me more

But then the other day

I was on the internet

I read that aspartame might be a carcinogen

Am I at higher risk of cancer than all of my friends?

I'll change my body and my hobbies

Switch from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous

So I don’t know

If I could do it all again

Would I still drink Diet Coke?

Nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach

Chewing sugar-free gum to try and curb my hunger

All my friends tell me I'm more than just “some stupid number”

But nothing will taste as good as being small for summer

I'll change my body and my hobbies

Switch from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous

So I don’t know

If I could do it all again

Would I still drink Diet Coke?

The only thing I ate today

Was a Tylenol to cure the sweetener headache

And if everything has side effects

Starving myself for confidence feels like a fair trade

I'll change my body and my hobbies

Switch from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous

So I guess I already know

If I could do it all again

If I could do it all again

If I could do it all again

I would still drink Diet Coke

Oh, I just like the way it tastes

Every t-shirt that I own is two sizes too big

Don't want anyone to know I have a body

But even if I started wearing clothes that actually fit

My skin is so tight, I can't breathe comfortably

So it stretches so thin it breaks

And that leaves little lines that are both angry and sad

And I am embarrassed and ashamed

Of the red and purple stretch marks that litter my entire lower half

So I try to make myself look as small as I feel

I hunch my shoulders and avert my eyes

And pray to God that somebody can see the appeal

Of a person whose only pretty on the inside