self sabotage

I'm still checking your location

Imagine our bed with you and her

Still look at pictures when we dated

Now I see a girl that's at her worst

My head is underwater

Drowning in my panic attacks

I'm sick of suffocating in my tears

One day I'll be stronger

Through all the self-sabotage

Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on

But in this moment

God, this really hurts like hell

But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led—

Led me to myself

I finally threw away your sweaters

I'm going out and moving on

In fact, I haven't cried about you in forever

Yeah, forever is but a week of being strong

I'm running through the darkness

Trying to get my old self back

I'm sick of suffocating in my tears

One day I'll be stronger

Through all the self-sabotage

Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on

But in this moment

God, this really hurts like hell

But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led

Led me to myself

Led me to myself

Led me to myself

'Cause I make myself stronger

Through all the self-sabotage

Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on

But in this moment

God, this really hurts like hell

But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led

Led me to myself