Snows Of Kilimanjaro

I've been drawing interstates over veins

Cause all i want to do is get away from this place

But i can't find the strength in these legs

To rid myself of this hell that i've made

So what am i waiting for?

I know i don't deserve to be alone

But i've convinced myself otherwise my entire life

And now nothingness is my only home

All i've done for days is read frost and hemingway

And think about the way you'd breathe down the back of my neck

And all these fucking nights run together

This is not my life, it's a nightmare

I don't expect to make it out alive

But there's no sin worse than being

Slaughtering myself by begging for love

I need to keep from destroying me

Do beating hearts mean we're alive

And bleeding wounds mean we're aware?

Because i know in the end

When my corpse is underground

This will all be forgotten