Dreamers

This one is dedicated to the dreamers

Most people see things that are there and ask why

Dreamers, see things that aren't there and ask why not

I'm dreamin' with you

I once knew a girl who on the surface was as solid as a rock

Future full of promise and mind seemed stronger than a ox

Face of beauty and a tongue was as honest as it got

That wasn't what is was, problem rock bottom she was lost

I couldn't see this sweet genius was full of secrets

Full of demons that pulled her deeper in this pool of leeches

Confused by the news, i was bruised when they told me

It concludes to the truth, was she consumed by the loneliness?

She was a true queen, nothing like elizabeth

Often caught her starin' into space with a distant look

Considerate but detached from others even when intimate

Now i'm searchin' for answers i'd never find in a book

Last time i saw her, before the day she took her life

I wish i fixed her pain, i shoulda, coulda, woulda tried,

But i took it personally and turned to leave,

And to this day i'm still haunted by the words she screamed...

Sometimes i really really hate myself

Sometimes i wish that i could change myself

Sometimes i don't wanna give no more

And sometimes i just don't wanna live no more

Sometimes i don't know where to go for help

Sometimes i don't really know myself

Sometimes i wish that i could fly away

And find away to a brighter day

They say that life is a question and death is the answer

But niko lost his brother and rewds lost his father

God bless your souls please know that i love you both

They say time heals but the pain still doesn't go

I've seen my brother die and seen my mother cry

Seen the wind change in the flutter of a butterfly

Seen people get sectioned for life, i think and wonder

A small twist of fate, that could've been my brother

25 years a life could say thus far

I always have wondered who the same ones are

Though i live by the words fear not i'm afraid

When i wrote this so many tears dropped on the page

It's mad how death always manifests in the weirdest ways

Won't go near the grave but in my dreams he appears the same

Then i get closer and see his face, it's clear as day

He looks me deep in the eyes and i hear him say...

Sometimes i really really hate myself

Sometimes i wish that i could change myself

Sometimes i don't wanna give no more

And sometimes i just don't wanna live no more

Sometimes i don't know where to go for help

Sometimes i don't really know myself

Sometimes i wish that i could fly away

And find away to a brighter day