Alien

Feeling like I gotta go now

Time is passing me I need to slow down

If there's one thing I know I'm supposed to be different

And I know that I'm distant

I don't understand it

I'm usually drifting into an abusive existence

Why I got into this

Always been driven it's all that I know and the reason

I'm gifted with painting these pictures

They claim as magnificent

Why can't I see it? I feel like I'm missing it

Search for the infinite

What the fuck does that mean?

Heaven or hell, fade into nothing

Or are we just stuck in a world in between

We just wait for our time to be called to the test

Reflect til' the day that we're laid down to rest

Tell me why do we have to lose someone we love just to find out

That we were too scared to connect

Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien

Most days I really just can't fit in

And I always been dealing with abandonment

Truth is I don't know if I can handle this

With anxiety the only way to manage it

Is meditating with a couple dozen candles lit

Behind stage I can feel my body panicking

Staring blank out at the crowd like a mannequin

Would you miss me?

And if I was to leave would you give me a standing ovation?

And would you be proud of the music I made and the thousands of lives

That I'm saving?

And will I go down as a person

Who somehow impacted a whole generation

I wish that I knew

I guess I'll just patiently wait til' the day that I'm taken

I think I'm an alien

Feeling like I gotta go now, go now

Time is passing me I need to slow down, slow down

And I think I might of come from outer space

I'm different than the people in this place

Maybe I'm an alien

I feel just like an alien

Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien

Do you think I'm an alien

Maybe I'm an alien

Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien

Moving forward then before I know it

I'm back in my room feeling paranoia

Thinking back wondering if I was ever different

Always letting people in that were barely loyal

Put my walls down, then I get myself in a bind

Left in the dust, tell me am I crossing your mind?

I wonder if they listen every time that I rhyme

Or if my name just faded through the waves of time

I say I'm fine, but I don't even know what that means

The grass on the other side is not what it seems

They're manipulating you with all their internet schemes

Just to convince you to buy fancier things

Fell victim to the lust, didn't know how to flee

And the Illuminati is probably as real as we think

Their making money off of people getting sick in their sleep

I can no longer pretend I'ma finally speak

I'm digging deeper in the industry every persons' a diva

They wanna get something from me and cut me down as a leader

I prefer to be alone, but I still want someone to be there

Cause half of my team is missing they left me in this arena

Like damn

Fans showing me more respect than my friends do

I been losing a little more than I planned to

This is the life that I've chosen now

With an army following gotta hold it down

Would you miss me?

And if I was to leave would you give me a standing ovation?

And would you be proud of the music I made and the thousands of lives

That I'm saving?

And will I go down as a person

Who somehow impacted a whole generation

I wish that I knew

I guess I'll just patiently wait til' the day that I'm taken

I think I'm an alien

Feeling like I gotta go now, go now

Time is passing me I need to slow down, slow down

And I think I might of come from outer space

I'm different than the people in this place

Maybe I'm an alien

I feel just like an alien

Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien

Do you think I'm an alien?

Maybe I'm an alien

I'm feeling like an alien

Maybe I'm an alien

I feel just like an alien

Do you think I'm an alien?

Maybe I'm an alien

Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien