A Pretty Sad Excuse

I feel so disappointing more times than I don't

I feel like such a let down and I'm nervous that I won't

Deliver when I'm called upon to step up when I'm needed

I feel like such a failure when I'm sure that I've succeeded

I call myself an outcast, more than likely I am not

An outsider on the inside and I hope I don't get caught

I feel like an impostor who should not be on the roster

Someone understands this and of course I've almost lost her

If I cherish or I value something then it's safe to say

I will dismantle or destroy it and I've always been that way

A pretty sad excuse that is fostering a sad existence

The thought of altering myself just meets my own resistance

A pretty sad excuse that is fostering a sad existence

Half the time I'm petrified and I'm terrified the rest

If I'm not being selfish than I'm probably depressed

What I haven't butchered here will probably be botched

I tried pulling the wool down there where everybody watched

Only the best intentions did I mention I'm not sure

Someone understands this she's got one foot out the door

In the interest of the time left and my own as well

There is more that I will just ignore or just keep to myself

A pretty sad excuse that is fostering a sad existence

The thought of altering myself just meets my own resistance

A pretty sad excuse that is fostering a sad existence

Half the time I'm petrified and I'm terrified the rest

Half the time I'm petrified and I'm terrified the rest

And if I'm not being selfish than I'm probably depressed

The prophecy was self fulfilling

And God knows who else would be willing

With nothing but to respect

Who would want to risk their neck?

And who among us would do that?

Just look at what we are looking at

Take in what we are taking on

Then look around now, and they're all gone

I'm gonna go back there, I've gotta get out of here

And I'll be headed your way, you know that I will one day

Back there, I've gotta get out of here

And I'll be headed your way, you know that I will one day

What if it all was above bored?

Perhaps our faith could be restored

And then the healing would begin

We'd get to feeling we could win

If we could only feel that way

And what's the limit? Who's to say?

Who knows how far? Who knows how hard?

The only real possession is the sky

I'm gonna go back there, I've gotta get out of here

And I'll be headed your way, you know that I will one day

Back there, I've gotta get out of here

And I'll be headed your way, you know that I will one day

One day

I'm not sure how this came to be but it's a way to carry on

Someone understands this and of course she's almost gone