My Last Song (For Her)

I call you up, you turn me down

I try to smile, but I can only frown

I call again and you make it out

Then we make up, and then make out

You freak out, so I dip out

I was stuck, like what the fuck?

My heart shouts, and my mind clouds

You pushed down on the elevator

I guess that means I'll see you later

We wrestled and we nestled

Those key steps to undress you

That kiss was real, and those lips are still

Sweetest flavor with a hint of steel

So confused, who broke the rules?

It wasn't me, and it wasn't you

I guess it's cool, shit

I should have seen this coming, with the way that you were running

With the way that you were acting, to how I was reacting

And I can't believe it, how you hit me past our season

And you never gave a shit when you said that I was leaving

And now, you're saying that you love me, tell me that you miss me

But music is a part of me, you tried to make that history

You crushed it, you beat it, you threw it to the ground

And set it fire in the air until I couldn't make a sound

Now love is what I search for, but not something you gave me

But now you come to me and say "I want you back my baby

I want you, I need you, you're something from up above."

But you never gave you're heart, so now I can't give love

I was never shown it, you're my opponent

I'm trying to be something that you can't see and also you never could own it

These women can't see this, it's just swag and money

You're heart is fucked and I know that I can't fix it up honey

I loved you so, you showed me none

You said that you me to father your daughter or son

But that's all wrong, I'm far too young

But then you stop telling me that you think that I could be the one

So I said I love you, and act like you made me

You put on a front, to act like you hate me

I pushed you down, and I know that I hurt you

And that's when I realized that I broke my one rule

I asked forgiveness, you walked away crying

Both of our hearts were broke and I was dying

Lying, but I still kept on trying

Our cycle of love and lust kept me smiling

But you didn't call that night, and I heard that you moved out

Arizona was your new home, you we're chilling with a new crowd

But three months later, your parents wouldn't let you inside

You were pregnant with a small child, and I can only imagine how much you cried

The next morning was church day, all they did was show you the door

They said that you slept around, they called you a slut, they called you a whore

So you called me that night, you had an almost dead phone

And the words that followed turned into a sad sad poem

But what I didn't know back then, that poem turned out as a note

Then you dropped the phone and I could hear you, slowly, choke

I shook with pure shock this couldn't be, real life

You gave your hope up, and you gave into all that strife

So I prayed to God that night, and in that prayer I cursed his name

I said I'd give all the money in the world to take away that someone's pain

And this is real rap right here, you know that it comes from the heart

And I was wondering if you could tell me why this hurt me from the start

These girls and these boys, they listen to me every single day

But they never realize the truth that sits and waits in every single word I say

And this isn't fake, this is all real life, and I'm getting it off my chest

Maybe if it's public to the world then you'll see, I can finally rest

I can finally rest

I can finally rest

All I want is to rest

So can I finally rest?

I call you up, you turn me down

I try to smile, but I can only frown

I call again and you make it out

Then we make up, and then make out

You freak out, so I dip out

I was stuck, like what the fuck?

My heart shouts, and my mind clouds

You pushed down on the elevator

I guess that means I'll see you later

We wrestled and we nestled

Those key steps to undress you

That kiss was real, and those lips are still

Sweetest flavor with a hint of steel

So confused, who broke the rules?

It wasn't me, and it wasn't you

I guess it's cool, fuck