Lonely

They say life gets lonely and whatever you do

You always gotta keep trying to make it through

No one stays forever, they ain't permanent like a tattoo

It just takes one mistake to fuck things up, and stay to haunt you

And the longer you invested, the more you feel out of luck

But hey we've been through this only a million times

Each feeling is different from the last,and sometimes it makes you clueless to the signs

And I guess its a crime to say I've been optimistic for a long time although

I'm constantly reminded on reasons on why I should go

They say life is just too expensive

To lay back and be chill fuck being aggressive

But I'm feeling worthless and nervous

To how I may never find my purpose

I have tunnel vision, to that I admit

When I see something that I like, I'm gonna fully commit

That's why that shit hurts when it's time to quit

I'm so used to giving my all, then back to nothing at all

I always find ways to fuck things up

You thought you could handle me

I knew this would happen, it was just too good to be

And fuck everyone trying to judge me for my perspective

This stormy cloud is following me, and my whole world is deceptive

I'm trying my best to find reasons to trust again

But why does it always feel like its gonna back fire on me again, setting me back the start again

I guess I just need to vent, but I'm lacking that one friend

I remember when I would go to sleep happy

Wake up happy, there was no reason for me to feel crappy

I'd gladly go back to them days, oh yes

I would use this as a warning to ease the stress

What did I get myself into, everything's turned into a mess

Life is stabbing me in the back, but at least I could rely on death to have my back

Bury my body 6 feet under ground

Have my soul ascend with a new journey to be found

No names said but the games were still played

The museum got lost and now I'm left with nothing for display

Friends eventually betray but brothers stay

They're from different ball sacks, ain't trying be funny but we still closer than two balls in a scrotum

They're the only reason why I hesitate

To leave and devastate the whole wide world, I'm carrying on my own two shoulders

I've been caring my whole life that I wasn't prepared for the boulder

And the older I become, the less I use my tongue

Talking is for chumps id rather sit back and plan my plot

Living life with a constant empty slot

That slot is really special to me and cannot be bought

It's right beside my heart and my squad

Forever lm, a group of stoners from vaud who refuses to pick the cotton

We fight for the forgotten garden

And we aren't clueless, our third eye vision is sharpened

Even when things are darkened

Night vision in my 3rd, haven't you heard that were gonna make a difference to this world

One step at a time, eventually we will find the right time

Taking slow with this rhymes

Doing unlawful crimes to get through hard times

Protecting my mind from the wrong kinds

Of porcupines that are trying to pierce through my mental

I'm standing from the sidelines spectating my own life

How much more people will I have to go through until my whole world explodes in this experimental

I tried taking things nice and gentle, but it wasn't until reality hit me so hard that I started to let go