Doomed to Mediocrity

It's been at twilight for quite some time now

But you don't need much light to see your outline

I notice things I've not seen before

Your grace, for one, as you slip through the door

I see things are older now

My whole life is over now

Still I stare I'm here though you think me there

A hi, a good-bye, it's nearly enough to make me cry

Idle mind, idle salutations

Only friends have idle conversations

Won't you let me see why it's always me

Why I'll always be doomed to mediocrity

Help me to help you see, why eternally, why pitifully

I'll always be doomed to mediocrity

A waiting prayer I make to find out all it takes to be

A man that you could see, should you be in my proximity

Maybe you could make it clear, since I am with you here

Help me to understand that you won't let me lend a hand

Do you hate me so much that you could do to me such

An unprovoked, malicious attack, a clear reminder that I can't go back

Lastly, I'm here to guard the station

Life is too much whichever way you're facing

And to madness it seems unclear

It would be clearer should you be near

But I've not given up on me, nor you on you

And everywhere you go there's my option too

A decision regretted I can't say where I'd go

But certainly I'll let you know

An instrument of fear itself rejection is nearing us

A thought crossed my mind more than once

You know how you never see me?

Maybe I can make you believe in me