Beyond The Pale

And sex was always there

From when I was only eight years Tempting me, leaving me thirsty

Sweat, skin, a pulse divine

To balance this restless mind

It seemed so wonderfully physical

Oh, the blood, the lust

The bodies that color the world:

All drugs to die for

Won't you share my fire?

How could love make that world a minefield of forbidden ground?

A map of untouchable skin and silenced desire

And love was there in vain, profound and deep but traced with pain

Too early for a child of ten

Loving the pure and sane he sought the goddesses unstained

Watching them turn to flesh again

Hungry for both the purity and sin, life seemed to him merely like a gallery of how to be

And he was always much more human than he wished to be

But there is a logic to his world, if they could only see

Wishing

Sickened

Ill

Ticking

Someone, still this hunger (it's in my blood) always growing stronger (ticking)

Budapest, I'm learning

Budapest, you're burning me

This is not who I wanted to be

This is not what I wanted to see

She's so young so why don't I feel free now that she is here under me?

Naked

Touching

Soft

Clutching

And then, after all, it lead me here to wake up again

Seeking a love that might make me feel free in myself

But then it proves to be something that hurts inside when we touch

So I move on, I lose my way

Astray I'm trying too much to feel unchained, to burn out this sense of feeling cold

And every day I seek my prey: someone to taste and to hold

I feel alive during the split second when they smile and meet my eyes

But I could cry 'cause I feel broken inside

Come and drown with me

The undertow will sweep us away

And you will see that I'm addicted to my honesty

Trust

'Cause after all my sense of truth once brought me here

But I've lost control and I don't know if I am true to my soul

I've lost control and I don't know if I am true to my soul

Losing control

And I don't know if I am true at all

And we were always much more human than we wished to be

And I remember when you said you've been under him

I was suprised to feel such pain

And all those years of being faithful to you

Despite the hunger flowing through my veins

And I have always tried to calm things down

Swallow down, swallow down

"It's just another small thorn in my crown"

But suddenly one day there was too much blood in my eyes

And I had to take this walk down Remedy Lane of whens and whys

Empty

Licking

Clean

Choking

Someone, still this hunger (possessing my mind) always growing stronger (craving)

Budapest, I'm learning

Budapest, I'm burning me

This is not who I wanted to be

This is not what I wanted to see

She's so young so why I don't feel free now that she's under me?

In the morning she's going away

In a Budapest taxi I've paid

Seeking freedom I touched the untouched

It's too much

I'm beyond the pale

Prematurity is the story of both you and me

And we were always much more human than we wished to be

Prematurity is truly the story of both you and me

And we were always much more human than we wished to be

We were always much more human than we wished to be

We were always much more human than we wished to be

We will always be more human then we wish to be

WE WILL ALWAYS BE

SO MUCH MORE HUMAN

THAN WE WISH TO BE