Survivor's Guilt

This vision that’s haunting me

That's causing this lack of sleep (a man)

Embodied, entrapped by disbelief (a man)

Who had it all but chose not to see

Rain hits the window, as I sit in the quiet

With only the drops on the pane to break the silence

An image of defeat, a man of anguish

Efforts exhausted on dreams, now vanished

(Exhausted on dreams, now vanished)

A home erased, torn from

The moral drive to carry on

Every morning I look in this mirror

Thinking how luxurious my life could be

My visions blurring

This lack of sleep, has got me in a haze

Accepting invitations, now I lay unconscious for days

Still empty, in this bed that bears so much weight

This weight of guilt, it holds me in place

A home erased, torn from

The moral drive to carry on

Desperately reaching for a hand to pull me out

Of this bottomless lake that I made here for myself

As I drift from the surface, I now realize I must accept these decisions

Let the cold embrace me, it's now the darkness in which I live in

I'm trying to push this to the back of my mind

Just like I had done to you so many times