Hard To Say Goodbye

I don't think you understand

The feeling that I get inside

When I see your cursive handwriting

It's like you're still alive

I laugh and then I smile

It takes a while before I sink

It's like a part of you is still among us

Sunk in to the ink

I write you on a sheet

Let my pen float like a river

I catch my thoughts in passing

Let it dry of on the paper

Memories are fading

Since we no longer communicate

The silent treatments torturous

Was I the one who thought you this

Sorry for the times I locked the door

Shut you out

Left the house without a word

I know the shit has kept you up

I woke up in the hospital

Had finally had enough

And that's about the time

I took to hear you out bout stuff

I had million questions pinching inside of my skull

Inside instincts insisted I invite you for a talk

Remember raising questions

As to what your biggest dreams were

Your reply included me

Doing what I dream for

And that's about the time I packed my bags

And moved away

To go to collage, I acknowlege

Got some knowlege on my way

And if it taught me something

It's that anything can happen

Any day can be the first

Any day can be the last

Any day can be the best and any day can make you hurt

I'v been putting in the hours

Best be with it in the end

Because I'm hanging loose but sitting tight

Realize that I did it might have

Spent a few years in silence just to make it over night

Hard to say goodbye

When the time flew us by

Reaching for the stars

See light in the sky

I can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows

Hard to say goodbye

When the time flew us by

Reaching for the stars

See light in the sky

I can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows

It's been a year now

And things are looking better

Since I had the time

I took the time

To write a letter

And even tho I can't stick a postage stamp and send it

I hope I sing this high enough for heaven gates to hear it

You see what I've been tryin' to do

Is to make you proud

Just sorry you can't witness

When I stand before the crowd

I'm sticking by the words

Knowing damn well what I promised you

You told me I could and

I told you I would make it trough

You said put in the hours

And the affort ain't for nothing

And now all of a sudden I'm in the competition

No doubt I'm feeling nervous

Like I'm staring at a gun

I got nikes on my feet but it's too late for me to run

And if I were to run my fate is all that I am running from

My fight is with myself

I swing for chances as they come

Been giving it my all

But it doesn't make me #1

May not have reached yet

I'll write you when I'm done

Hard to say goodbye

When the time flew us by

Reaching for the stars

See light in the sky

I can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows

Hard to say goodbye

When the time flew us by

Reaching for the stars

See light in the sky

I can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows

Can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows

Can't reach far so I keep you close

I try to hide it off but it often shows