​i hate waking up (feat. Rxseboy, SadBoyProlific & Alek Olsen)

When the Sun widens its eyes

I no longer know what's goin' on in here

Ayy, ayy

Wakin' up soon, but I wanna sleep

Nothing is worse than leavin' these sheets

Barely awake, still brushing my teeth

Running the tap, rinse and repeat

You were the lady and I was a tramp

But showing you off, I felt like the champ

I was your favorite, but fading away

Leaving saliva all over my face

Movies on Fridays no longer a thing

Huh, I-I feel it sting

What didn't I bring? 'Cause I brought a lot

In case you come back, I'll be saving your spot

Try making a difference and showing you life

Stuck at your side, you stuck in a knife

Pourin' you wine, you pourin' my blood

Wipe out my lifе, in need of a flood, yeah

I need a flood, I need an ending

I'm scared of thе truth, so I'll keep pretending

Don't need a reason, I've been defeated

Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus

I no longer know what's going on in here

Yeah, ever seen somebody die?

Ever cut your wrists with the bluntest of knives?

Hit your friends, started texting goodbyes?

Ain't nothin' left, but death in your eyes

Sometimes people leave and the lesson's acceptance

The older you get, harder it is to get it

Some people look for you, some look for an exit

Might hurt you, might hate it, but never regret it

(I don't run from pain, it made me)

How could I ever hate what had shaped me?

Been to hell, how could death ever phase me?

Wish 'em well, even when they all hate me

Let me be, take my soul and finally set it free

Spread my ashes on the seven seas

Let me rest in peace, when I'm dead, deceased

Swear, a grave's the only thing that's left for me

I need a flood, I need an ending

I'm scared of the truth, so I'll keep pretending

Don't need a reason, I've been defeated

Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus

I no longer know what's going on in here (I have literally no hope, I have nothing left)

Ain't a discography, this an effigy

I'm a giant, so when I am dyin'

You had better make sure that I'm buried seven feet

My reflection deference to the left of me

Cracking under pressure, don't let it get to me

You can even break me down chemically

Rappin' pain, the only thing that my chemistry

Contains, I think that this meant for me

I think it's meant for me, maybe not meant to be

I'm sick and tired of fighting with enemies

Tryin' to cry, she lied about everything

I wanna die, but that's a petty thing

I got a lot more I could be giving

Some people hate me, that's a given

Wonder what I could've done to act like the Sun

And put some good use to my energy

I think I'm done, done, done, done

I wanna run, run, run, run

Tried to get some, some, some, some

And I fucked up my funds, funds, funds, funds

I got like two years to be me

And I got like three days in a week

Now I got like four things that I need

And I bought like five pills, I'm asleep

Yeah, you know I'm tired as shit

I thought I'd die as a kid

I brought a knife into school

And they told me, It is what it is

Should've been locked in a prison

Talk about shitty decisions

I had to roam, no intentions

Told me to work for my pension, huh

Nowadays, I've been getting paid

'Cause the music got me some attention, yeah