Hindsight

I screamed to God out of frustration

After another day of waking and hating the fact

That I'm still where I'm at

What's the point of all of this

Cuz I'm not seeming to find it

Is it meaningless? I search the reason behind it

Because these moments seem to drag on forever

And these years on end seem to have never been this

Desperation has formed repetition within

Too insecure to pretend and I'm too weak to defend

Here it comes again all in my world again

Left with no direction no beginning no end

The days blend together and the weather never changes

Numb to the outcome but yet not quite painless

Aimless to whether or not I made a mistake

And if so how far is too far before it's too late

Should I wait but then what would be too long

To reverse the effects if I was wrong

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Hindsight is a beautiful thing

When you can look back and see what patience and time can bring

Is it a must that I'm here is it a must that I stay

In order to look forward must I look away

We're moving towards a new day

Unsure of what tomorrow will bring our way

I'm not even quite sure of what this day holds

I say we travel the unknown and watch it unfold

Hold today close while still reaching for tomorrow

Through the test of time I've seen joy overcome sorrow

So with every trial I endure

With hopes to mature into what I was created for

More than life itself I want life itself

Press past the present until forever is felt

And take hold of the hidden mystery

Wide eyed and open I now see differently

If it's to be then give me the strength to be content

And find peace in knowing one day it will all make sense

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Learning to accept the unexpected

Because the unknown wasn't here for me to correct it

So I let it go and stopped trying to control the impossible

Simply put tossed in the shuffle

At a young age just like everyone else

So I don't feel sorry for you or for myself

Love is bigger than that and I'm not below or above

The way it moves even though the things it does

To my train of thought can bring about doubt and uncertainty

Patience tends to not agree with my psyche

That's more than likely just some pride in me

Fighting expectations of where I think my life should be

Selfishly I forget so quickly

Let me never forget Lord break me in humility

Some sort of amazing grace on me

As I look back upon my life and where You've taken me

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Hear the call peace fall

From trial to triumph I want your hand in it all

Allow me to know where to stand in it all

Life Giver