Fell

You can laugh all you want to,

I don't care.

Only one thing matters to me

and it isn't here.

Like a happy, go-easy girl,

I should've waited for those railing bells.

They were only the rattling about

of my ruined shell.

what do I know about love?

I never could show myself.

I lay down my cloud hung hopes

wherever the first ones fell.

I lit up to the tower

when you were last asleep.

With the pigeons and cobwebs to cover,

I kept my peace.

But this terrible aching was rumbling

through the stone floors.

And I set out to howling,

Rescue me!

what do I know about love?

I never could show myself.

I lay down my cloud hung hopes

wherever the first ones fell.

Stammer away,

penny brigade,

Hell sunk and fretless

and dancing.

I played all my fears

into alchemy's ears

and she's deaf to my

every asking.

Take this saturn-soft flesh,

that I have smoothed over.

Give it all up to gravel and grease

and hard labor.

There were lovers who shone over me

like to shame the very sun,

but the thieves who would spit on my breast

were the generous ones.

what do I know about love?

I never could show myself.

I lay down my cloud hung hopes

wherever the first ones fell.